"I wonder when it started,the drifting, it’s like my mind and my body have come apart, little by little… Whenever something sad or painful happens, it’s like there’s another me who watches it, like it’s happening to someone else, thinking ‘that’s not me’. I can live like that. I’ll lock my heart deeper, if I do that, I won’t have to feel pain outside or inside, or the fear. I won’t have to feel anything at all."
